I've realized that there is a great possibility of getting myself burnt out. At the end of August, I almost reached my breaking point. I was busy, my personal life felt like it was in shambles, and my living situation was uncertain for the future. I ended up taking an almost week long vacation right at the beginning of September, and even though I knew I didn't have time for it, I am glad I didn't have a choice but to go. It was a release that I desperately needed, and it helped me to realize that though we are not always in control of what happens to us, if we put our mind toward a certain goal, control is sometimes an easier thing to have than it seems.
This Friday I will be moving into my first ever apartment by myself. I am equal parts excited and scared. Scared because I've never lived alone before (at least for months on end) and I'm not sure if I'll get lonely or nervous being solely responsible for my everyday life. But I am also excited because I think this is a step in my life that needed to be taken. So whether or not I'm a little nervous or just plain thrilled, I'm so happy it's happening. Not to mention, the apartment has two bedrooms, which means the bigger one is going to be dedicated to Jenna Rose Photography. My very first studio and office! Very exciting.
Back to October. I've honestly surprised myself at how I've so far managed to handle my workload this year. I set a goal to finish by a certain day and I have almost always acheived it. And if, for some reason, I didn't meet a deadline, the next day I was sure to get it done. All the while planning a move, spending time with my boyfriend, and keeping up on my blog :) This month is my biggest month for weddings, but I'm not worried. Although the weather might be tricky to navigate, we've done it before, and we'll do it again.
I'm also sad that this is the last month of the season. While there are always odd jobs in the wintertime, not having my big weddings and things to look forward too just doesn't feel the same. I'm actually quite happy that I feel this way (thus the "bittersweet") because it makes me realize that I love what I do. You shouldn't be a photographer if you don't enjoy it, if you don't get something out of it. And I can't imagine doing wedding photography if you don't find it enjoyable. It's too much work if it isn't fun.
So anyway, I just thought I would let you all know how I am feeling lately. I tell you, the way I was a month ago, it feels like a full turnaround, so it's good to be happy, so I hope you all are feeling the same! Enjoy the fall season, and hopefully I'll see some of you at the weddings! Oh and as a reward to all of you who read my post... here's a pretty picture for you!
^I created this image from one I took over two years ago at a wedding in Rockford. It really is a beautiful shot,
I probably didn't need to do much more to it but I was feeling crafty, thus the dreamy effect.